simply keep(s) this a problem in my life because it allows me to act like a child and indulge every whim rather than do what is needed, which is to feed my body healthy, nutrient dense food in appropriate amounts and to exercise.
My first thought was "damn, she's paying someone to say mean things to her?!". And then my second thought was "Huh, I think that applies to me too."
I'm smart. I know what I need to do to lose weight (a staggering amount, after this second pregnancy). I am lucky enough to even know *exactly* how I need to eat, and that I will feel *incredible* when I eat the right things and get just a little bit of exercise.
For me and my PCOS, diabetes-family-history self, the Paleo diet works best. Doing the Whole30 back in Oct 2011 was really transformative for me - I had a TON of energy, needed only 7-8 hours of sleep, and felt mentally clear and just *ready* for whatever life was going to bring.
So who wouldn't keep doing it, with those fabulous results? It would be stupid to stop, right? But I did. It was a gradual process, and I've still kept some good habits, so it's not a total loss. But it started with just one plate of French toast, and continued down the slippery slope of "I've got 2 little kids now and I'm starving and the Taco Time drive-through is easy."
I was angry about having a restricted diet and felt that with all the transitions in my life lately, I "deserve" to eat what I want. But I'm a grownup. I'm in charge, and making the choices. I shouldn't feel like "someone" is forcing me to eat healthy against my will.
I'm not a person for whom "everything in moderation" works. I need ironclad rules. I also HATE food journaling with a passion. Whole30 and on a larger scale, Paleo, meets all these needs. No counting, no hunger, and all the (sustainably, humanely sourced) bacon a girl can eat.
I am starting fresh today with my second Whole30. So if you see me in person, help a girl out. Don't bring me cake or ask if I want to see the dessert menu. And most definitely do not order me a diet Coke if we're meeting for lunch.
I feel good about this. I'm mentally ready to do what's right for me. I know it's going to be hard, especially at weekend breakfasts out. But I do not want to arrive at my 40th birthday (looming!) still fighting with myself about weight and wishing things were different. So here's to DOING.