Today my baby girl picked out her first pair of glasses.
With a little help from us and the extremely knowledgable folks at Woodlawn Optical in Redmond, she picked a pair that are hot pink on the outside, and bright orange inside. I wish they made them in my size.
We took her to the eye doctor last month because I had noticed one of her eyes crossing inward occasionally. I wasn't sure if I was making it up, or if eyes were supposed to do that, because really, how often do you look that close at someone's eyes? But the doc confirmed what he saw at her exam a year ago - her eyes are farsighted, with one significantly worse than the other.
She could read the letters and numbers on the standard eye chart to the 20/30 line so she's not having trouble seeing, but the good eye is REALLY overcompensating for the other one. So in order to train the muscles in the weaker one, the doc recommended glasses.
My heart sank. My gorgeous girl, in glasses at age 2? I've had horrible vision since I was 9 so I'm no stranger to glasses. But I wasn't ready to hear that my baby needed them already.
Not because I thought her toddler friends would make fun of her. They don't talk much, yet. At least not to each other.
I just don't want her to become "the little girl with the glasses". I don't want her to have to worry about wearing them when she's running, jumping, climbing or throwing balls around. I'm not looking forward to that first couple of weeks when she doesn't want to wear them and we can't make her understand *why* she has to keep them on all the time.
It's not that different from managing her dairy allergy, but it's so much more visible. I don't want people making assumptions about her - that she must be very careful, that she shouldn't get dirty, that she is quiet and studious, that they need to talk loudly and slowly, or any number of other things that adults think when they see a tiny girl with glasses.
For me, this is one of the harder parts of being a parent. Making your child do something she doesn't like, because you know it's the best thing for her long-term. Pretending to be excited about it, in the hope that she will get excited too. Feeling like I can't protect her from people who are going to say stupid or hurtful things.
Maybe I'm overthinking this. I hope that when the world sees her rockin' her supercute hot pink frames, they see my smart, funny, serious BabyT. Not as I see her, because I've got my mama-goggles on. But as an interesting little person just like any other 2 year old.